FOR TODAY, Monday, August 30, 2010
Outside my window…
It's beautiful & breezy & not so hot, it is very welcome after a hot weekend of having to run the a/c
I am thinking…
About life & death & the complexity of it all. How death affects each person differently. Each person is in a different place, has a different relationship, with the one who has died. We had to put our husky to sleep on Saturday. It's hurts me to watch my stepdaughter be sooo upset about it & it hurts even more to see her act like she is angry at us about it, yet she refuses to discuss the situation with us, so we can resolve nothing. Oh how my heart aches for both the loss of the dog as well as for my stepdaughter. At least I take comfort in the knowledge that the dog had a good long life & we took good care of her & loved her & even in her final tough 6 days I know I took good care of her & am grateful to be able to say that.
I am thankful for…
My awesome & holy God, I sometimes look around at this world & long for it to all be over with, there is so much ugliness & greed that it sickens me
From the learning rooms…
I finished my continuing education modules for renewing my license. I am still doing daily Bible study with lil J. I started reading my own daily Bible reading out loud, for lil J's benefit. And I am now reading other books out loud to lil J. We started & finished Winnie the Pooh, we are now reading Black Beauty. And I still read to him in Spanish often.
From the kitchen…
I need to make a pot of beans. I need to start making home-made bread, at least for me & lil J, since we eat so much of it, it will really help to lower our grocery bill if I start making my own.
I am wearing…
a black top with a blue cami underneath & denim shorts
I am creating…
?? I printed out the music sheets to songs from lil J's favorite show (Cherub Wings), hopefully I will be able to make time to sit down & learn some of them on the guitar, I think he will really enjoy that
I am going…
We were supposed to take my stepdaughter & her boyfriend out to dinner tonight, not sure if they are still wanting to go, but am hopeful that they will. my stepson is also with us today, since he has a school holiday, so it would be nice to also take him out to dinner as well.
I am reading…
The Gradual Vegetarian, my mother bought me this book back in 1988 & it impacted me so much I have never parted with it. It is actually falling apart, I need to get it rebound or get a new copy really, but it's still a great read. It's great just for learning how to eat healthier, even if you have no interest in being a vegetarian. But I am returning to my vegetarian ways & am reading it & reviewing some old favorite recipes in it. And I'm still reading my Francine River's novel as well.
I am hoping…
To have a date night for my birthday. As much as I love lil J I haven't had a break in over a year & I would really like one. We really can't afford to do a birthday party, but I told hubby I would really like a date night & that's ALL I really want for my birthday.
I am hearing…
lil J playing with his toys & the breeze blowing outside; oh how I love the sound of the breeze, I love where I live sooo much simply because of the wonderful breeze here.
Around the house…
This morning while I was in the shower lil J (in his jumperoo) opened the drawer on the nightstand & pulled everything out! He is toooo much sometimes.
Some of my favorite things…
Family & friends & beautiful weather like today
A few plans for the rest of the week:
Will probably need to go grocery shopping sometime this week, although there is nothing we are urgently needing yet, thank goodness.
I am praying…
the same as last week, but also for my stepdaughter in her grief & anger regarding our husky
Here is a picture thought I am sharing:
Here is my little stinker from this morning
5 comments:
My GrandDad recently passed, and it's been interesting watching my Mom deal with it. She's a very, very strong person. Almost stoic about it. And yet there are some wisdoms she has begun to share with me through this process.
When is your birthday? (((((HUGS))))) sandi
My hubby is upset about the way my stepdaughter is acting, but I reminded him that she is not in the same place as us regarding this. This is a dog she grew up with from childhood, that makes it harder. She also hasn't lost a lot of loved ones through death at her age yet, as both me & hubby have. It was technically her dog which makes her closer to it than we were. And I know once I married & had a family though I still love animals they just aren't nearly as significant to my life as my family is now. She doesn't have that either, which makes the dog even more important in her life. It's just interesting to me how all these factors can make it a very different experience for everyone involved in the loss.
My birthday is September 14th.
So sorry to hear of your loss, I extend my deepest sympathy to you my friend.
Of course I didn't want him to die, but it is okay. He was 96 and lived a long, full life. And we did not have a relationship. I saw him in the grocery store once and had to tell him who I was~and not because his mind was going~LOL! (((((HUGS))))) sandi
oh sorry, I do understand though; I had a relationship with my paternal grandfather until the age of 12, when my parents divorced, but I never really had a relationship with my maternal grandfather at all.
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